Great is Thy Faithfulness

  Last night I went to bed knowing that when I woke up this morning, it would be my last Sunday with G for the next 6 months.  I knew that today would be hard, and so I had been praying for strength and peace to go through today.  

  When my alarm went off this morning, I was groggy, but there were clear words to a song that immediately came to my mind.

  "Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father....

Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not......

Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow......

Great is Thy faithfulness!  Great is Thy faithfulness! ...... 

All I have needed Thy hand hath provided.  Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!"

G made me these flowers when he was in college.  Undying....just like our love for each other.

  How could I not look forward to a day that started with words of comfort from my Heavenly Father?  I prayed for peace and strength for the day, and God blessed me with both.  He even went a step further, and reminded me of His faithfulness and compassion to me.  God is unfathomably AWEsome!  He has always been faithful to our family, and He has always provided.  I know that He won't stop caring for us or leading us now.

  My day today was surprisingly good.  Our Pastor had an amazing sermon this morning that I thought was applicable to our situation.  One of the many things I learned from his sermon, is that God specifically chooses trials for specific people, and that through our trials, our faith is strengthened, and we are saved. 

  The rest of the day was filled with food, family, and good byes.  I even surprised myself by not crying all day.  I'm sad, but I think my emotions are in survival mode.  I can feel, but I'm not letting myself dive in to the depth of loneliness and sadness that is sure to come.  I want to be strong now for myself, for G, and for my kids.  I'll do enough crying on Monday and Tuesday morning. 

  We ended the day by feeding the kids, giggling together, and giving lots of hugs and kisses.  The best part was lying in bed after church with G and 3 naked-tummy little kids!  We all were pretending to sleep, and then we would pop our heads up and be "awake" and giggle.  :)  Fun, and silly memories!

My 4 favorite people :)

   The day is almost over, and tomorrow is about here, and we're one day closer to our separation.  Our plan for the rest of the night will be taking videos of G for me and the kids to watch.  I'm sure there will also be lots of talking, snuggling, and maybe some tears between us.

   God is good, and He promises to bless us with strength for today, and bright hope for tomorrow.  For that, I am thankful and comforted.  Lord, please uphold me as I say good bye to my best friend...